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      "Soulshaping is a beautiful story of one mans spiritual journey that reveals the inspiring, yet often humbling, path of growth and self-transformation. Jeff offers us a raw, honest and humorous glimpse into the exploration of self, while also imploring us to celebrate the opening of the heart and the awakening of the soul- no matter where we are directed, what is revealed, or who shows up. I Highly recommend this book."
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APOLOGIES TO THE DIVINE FEMININE (from a warrior in transition)

APOLOGIES TO THE DIVINE FEMININE (from a warrior in transition)

I apologize for my inability to distinguish the benevolent warrior from the heartless warrior, a reflection of my own confusion dealing with the battlefields of yore. When I opened my heart too wide, I was vulnerable to attack from warring factions. I was conditioned to believe that I had to stay rigid, focused, prepared for any eventuality, in the desire to protect myself and others from attack. But I went too far, and closed too tight, and eradicated the bridge between our hearts. I am seeing this now and I am sorry.

I apologize for my perpetual absence, a reflection of my own inner absence, my inability to connect from a heart jammed tight by unresolved emotions that I did not have the tools to work through. I still lack many of these tools, but I am open to their emergence.

I apologize for my inability to distinguish relationship from war. Like a warrior in enemy territory, I would sneak in and out of your life in the night, plundering and selfishly taking what I needed, then crawling back to the other side of the abyss with the spoils. I gave little back for fear that I would become vulnerable to attack. I had war on the brain and I could not see the river of love waiting on the other side of the battlefield. I now recognize that love is the antidote for the armoured warrior, but I could not drink the antidote in my driven state.

I apologize for not seeing you, my eyes blinded by congealed rage and unshed tears. If it is any consolation, and I imagine it is not, I could not see myself either. I saw only that which served my hyper-vigilance, my warrior focus. My mirror was a battlefield.

I apologize for my ungrounded materialism, my power driven tyrannies, my obsession with accumulation. Somehow I imagined that accumulation would protect me and those close to me, but I failed to recognize that it just perpetuated the madness. I also apologize for my egoic abuses, a reflection of my own misguided ego, pumped up to deal with an inherently competitive world. I couldn’t distinguish the healthy, confident ego from the cocky, unhealthy ego. I went much too far in the wrong direction.

I apologize for a sexuality that was objectifying and disconnected from the heart. I know you longed for real intimacy, a merging of our souls along the heart-genital highway. But there were too many defences around my heart, and no bridge could form between our souls. There were moments when your loving ways freed me from my body masks, but I had no template to stand in that heart-fire. I am sorry for this, for I know that the path you longed for was the path to God.

I apologize for my horrifying acts of violence, a reflection of my own congealed rage, my own inability to distinguish real enemies from friends. There are no words that can undo what I have done in those moments of madness. I know this, I do. I would hide my face in shame, but that won’t make things better. I need to own my misdeeds, and then find a way to believe in my capacity to move from a more loving place. I call out to other male warriors to be accountable for the actions of our gender, not in a way that is self-hating, but in a way that is courageously self-honest and genuinely compassionate. The heartfelt warrior acknowledges the error of his ways, and has the courage to do all he can to make amends over time.

I apologize for my inability to develop a conscious relationship. You were right there with your beautiful heart on your sleeve but I was too attached to my individualism and afraid of this unknown terrain. I know the forests, the marketplace and the ways of the outer world so well, but my inner geography is foreign to me. You called me to a place I was ill-prepared to go, although I sensed, below the surface of my bravado, that you called me home.

I am grateful for your willingness to believe that who I was in those rare moments of vulnerability was the real me. You were right- the real me lives inside of my heart- but a few moments now and then was the most I could handle. I saw you as dangerous, for in your presence I began to taste a surrendered way of being. Nonetheless, your faith in my goodness kept me going through many a battle, and restored my faith in life when I most needed it. You were the light at the end of a barbaric tunnel, and I am blessed.

I am grateful that you stuck with me through thick and thin, and I also understand those times you had to give up and let go. I now recognize that there is meaningful difference between a love-ship and a relationship. Love alone is not enough. Without a shared willingness to become conscious, there can only be frustration. I was so often impossible, clinging to my unconsciousness like a soldier clings to his weapons. I recognize the courage it took for you to keep your heart open in the presence of my resistance. You had every right to seek an authentic relationship, as your spirit was ignited in its presence. Your beautiful heart had every right to be met in its openness and willingness. I am grateful for the time you gave me, a moments respite from the hiding places I mistakenly called home.

I am grateful for Grandmother, for no one saw my tenderness more clearly. I am grateful for Mother, for choosing to bring me into being and for nourishing my body until I could find my feet. I am grateful for Mother Earth, for grounding my expansion and enlivening my spirit. I am grateful for the Divine Mother, the real Mother of us all. I now feel her divine presence, so close. Fiercely compassionate, she was always right here, breathing life into me, holding me safe. I sit in her lap as she breathes me.

I look forward to the day when the only thing that ignites relationship is two souls calling out to one another, two soul-hearts beating in the same direction, a whisper of longing that bridges one essence to another. I want to want you not because it gratifies my ego, not because you are outwardly beautiful, but because your very presence invites my Godself out of hiding. I want to touch you with my heart on my sleeve, to know chemistry between us that is not gender identified, but that is essence sourced, loves liquid lava flowing from the heart to the genitals to the great beyond. In this love-struck world, relationship will always be experienced as spiritual practice, a devotional expression of our God-self.

I had always believed that sensitivity is impossible to hold to in a harsh world. Yet in this moment, I feel sensitive, but without the fragility. I am still wearing armor but there is a shift in the direction of my intensity. I can linger in the heart-space a little longer than I once could, I am softening in places. After so many lifetimes with weapon in hand, a tenderling warrior is being birthed in the core of my being. He is confused, but he intuitively knows that this is the way home.

Please don’t give up on me or my fellow warriors. Forgive us our misdeeds, or, at the least, be open to the possibility that we will change as the trail expands to meet our shifting intentionality. The day will come when our warrior spirit loses its harsh edge, and comes into alignment with benevolent action. Some of us are already there, and many more of us will follow. The road to transformation is dependent on a bridge between genders, a benevolent bridge that celebrates our differences with respect and kindness. That work must begin with healing the rifts along the gender continuum, working hard to heal the collective heart until one day we can stand on a bridge across forever, hands held together, hearts open and alight, embracing the sacred masculine and divine feminine living at the heart of us all. I will meet you there.

May you feel the love of the Divine Mother crashing down on your heartfelt shores, graciously lifting you up above the madness of the world, nestling you in the grateful arms of those you have nurtured. Those of us who have received your blessings may not always acknowledge it, but your acts of love have landed within us, growing us stronger and infusing us with love’s light. Thank you.

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Comment from Lucie
Time September 20, 2010 at 5:31 pm

Jeff, it is awesome to read you here, I think it’s insightful also enlightening of you to make this statement from your inner side. Sometimes, the best thing we can do to love someone else is to humble ourselves, acknowledge our failure in loving and ask for forgiveness what a lovable action, because in our time , of competition and being successful in all ways possbile it became a shame, and it wouldn’t be that true.Hats off to you, I was thinking at first that you could be a kindda of insensitive person somehow.Wishing you a very happy end, after all, you know just you can do it.Glad I can watch, and learn, thank you.

Comment from Kimberley Jones
Time September 20, 2010 at 5:38 pm

My heart aches with gratitude & the joy of deep witnessing. Your humility & connection to group soul & the collective wounds ready to heal are simply stunning Jeff. I love you to bits! Thank you for daring to speak from soul & for soul. I hear you soul brother.
Love & blessings,
Kimberley x

Comment from Diane
Time September 20, 2010 at 8:48 pm

Sometimes I experience bouts of deep despair – (which I ALWAYS find my way out of), but sometimes I despair in the sheer knowing of what can be, sitting with the longing of wanting depth and connection that it seems many do not know or understand. I feel this deeply, not just for myself but for nations and earth and for our global family. So you have galvanized me today and you have given me insight into your own soul’s search, perhaps a picture of many dear heart souls out there. You have given me a tool today – a knowing of the unripeness of a striving heart – that is not perfect but still strives… and this is the most beautiful thing that will always bring me out of despair – a striving heart! In your willingness to express it and put it out there, I have put your words in the mouths of many (people, nations) and you have brought forgiveness into my heart. Blessed blessed blessed BE!!!! Allah Hafiz! Yahooooooooo! Thank you!

Comment from Sherri A. Scott
Time September 20, 2010 at 11:08 pm

Thank you Jeff for having the courage to bare your soul for all to see – and open yourself up to them, to us with anticipation of compassion – to accept without judgement, to love.


Comment from Jia-Egypt Montai
Time September 21, 2010 at 1:15 am

feels wonderful and so healing to the feminine side, thank you Jeff, you are a beautiful soul, one love 🙂 <3

Comment from Barbara
Time September 21, 2010 at 1:46 am

Dear sweet brother ~~ after so very many years of carrying The Grief and Sorrow that came with not being truly seen or honored as your lover and friend, we women rejoice and are comforted beyond words at hearing your acknowlegments and apologies for the many time you were not able to See and love us in the truest of ways. But, Always I knew what your soul longed for and why you could not meet me there. It is never too late in the world of unconditional Love and All possibilities. Namaste, my dear brother. You speak for so many dear souls and with your words a sweep of forgiveness and healing reverberates throughout your brothers and sisters. ♥

Comment from Beth Noelle
Time September 21, 2010 at 6:31 pm

This… is… beautiful…
Thank you for owning…
This owning opens my heart… heals my heart…
I have not given up.
I hold to healing.
Ready to receive and welcome home the beloved…

Comment from Shelly
Time September 21, 2010 at 7:33 pm

I cannot tell you how much my ‘soul essence’ rejoices deep inside as your sincere feelings jump from the words you have written. Just to have this acknowledged means the world to me my dear soul friend….thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of a heart with many ‘truth-aches’ unfulfilled so far this lifetime. Bless your heart forever….. May rainbows and smiles light your path always. 🙂

Comment from wkblackburn
Time September 21, 2010 at 10:17 pm

thank you.
i am working for the Divine Feminine in a big way right now. I have been asked by the Santo Daime Church of the Second Coming to Create Mary Magdalen Ceremony so i am grateful to hear the Divine Masculine speaking up and clearing the energy.

Comment from MariaLuz Goodwin
Time September 21, 2010 at 11:19 pm

we ~~”…will meet you there” Jeff, as you said in the interview tonight, “..we don’t loose archetypes, we add to them…now a more graceful warrior…” I say the “tenderling warrior” is YOU!!! Much love to you <3 Thank you ~~Blessings~~

Comment from ellen Borlenghi
Time September 22, 2010 at 9:39 am

Thank you for writing this piece…I think this is one of the most brilliant things I’ve ever read…I am overwhelmed by it’s beauty….love….

Comment from Michael Saunders
Time September 22, 2010 at 8:16 pm

Your words are travelling from village to village, calling us into our hearts. Are we ready? We must be or your post wouldn’t be going viral. I have never seen anything move like this and bring women AND men together so beautifully. You have opened the door to the paradigm you invited in your Soulshaping love chapter. I am loving witnessing the way it is moving through corridors on Facebook and then some. My cousin called me today from Berkeley to read it to me. Its popping up every place. Get your seatbelt on. You are going to need it.

Comment from Shanti
Time September 23, 2010 at 4:07 am

Thank you so much for this, it is one of the most beautiful and one of the most moving acknowledgements I have ever read; Though written by a male warrior apologizing for lifetimes of war-conditioned armored actions I, though of the female gender, feel a deep empathy with this for the armored warrior has been me in many lifetimes and lives inside me still though I also am a “warrior in transition”. Blessed Be <3

Comment from Marian Van Eyk McCain
Time September 23, 2010 at 10:47 am

Thank you for this beautiful and inspiring piece of writing. I shall post links to it in several places and hope that many others read it in the days and weeks – maybe years – to come.

Comment from 33bowls
Time September 23, 2010 at 4:22 pm

Wow. Deservedly going viral.

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Time September 24, 2010 at 8:13 am


Comment from Laura
Time September 25, 2010 at 10:26 am

Your vulnerability and courage have given me the gift of feeling honored, as well as knowing that such beauty is real. I knew it was! Thank you!


Comment from Jimmy Piver
Time September 25, 2010 at 10:54 am

Wow, Jeff, This just blew me away! Whew! You said it perfectly, everything I have been wanting to say and couldn’t get the words out. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Comment from Qadesh
Time September 26, 2010 at 2:31 am

Beautiful. Eloquest. I feel as though you’ve seen me and understood everything. No, my friend, love alone is truly not enough. I know now why I left. And I know now what I seek — emotional and spiritual union, two souls beating in in the same direction. Thank you for speaking what is in my heart.

Comment from karen
Time September 27, 2010 at 2:24 am

You are an emissary of truth. Keep writing. They will come to knock you off your moorings but don’t let them. Stay the course.

Comment from Yinarra
Time September 28, 2010 at 12:41 am

Jeff, you have been incredibly courageous to share your innermost feelings with the world and the resulting liberation for your soul is a joy to witness.

A reminder, as you continue to journey ‘home’, that we are ALL responsible for forgetting and dishonouring the Divine Feminine and for allowing the Masculine to dominate. We have all experienced previous incarnations as both genders; sometimes warriors, sometimes powerless – so collectively we have created that reality.

We have chosen, in this lifetime, to heal and transform this in whatever form or gender we can best express our gifts to do this.

My heart reaches out to you, dear one.

We are

Comment from Owen
Time September 28, 2010 at 2:42 am

Truely, a warrior’s spirit vivified… Your words and setiments bring the definition of ‘warrior’ to a new profound level…
All the very best in your brilliant alignment with reality!

Comment from Tarini
Time September 28, 2010 at 4:48 pm

It is liberating to read words that represent feelings so precisely. Your phraseology seems to mend the frayed tether between the genders but most potently within ourselves/between ourselves. Blessings

Comment from Kyra
Time September 28, 2010 at 8:30 pm

Beloved Jeff, Carrier of the ancient remembering,
Your wisdom, awareness and willingness to express the healing of heart and soul across all dimensions! You are the exalted warrior – living for the Light with a brilliance that brings liberation to your soul, but also to the soul of the collective masculine and collective feminine that have bought into the reality of the illusion of separation. We Are One – now and always. Your willingness to go beyond false beliefs and boundaries blesses us all with healing, remembrance of wholeness and the realization of Oneness. Thank you. the sacred treasure of these words reaches far beyond those that read them and feel ignited, but into the farthest reaches of consciousness where we unite with Source and find ourselves once again at home.
I am in awe, gratitude and profound respect for your brilliance!
In Loving Gratitude and Oneness,

Comment from Lisa E
Time September 29, 2010 at 8:40 am

All I can say is…wow! This really helped me understand a lot about certain experiences I’ve had.

On one level, I felt slightly sad because I think that so many men are stuck and in the first half of what you wrote–the actual warlike acts of protection and defense–and are not moving through it. At the same time, I felt a sense of relief–and hope–because of what you wrote. It’s so beautifully said–extremely eloquent–and I believe that your words…your book…could lead to major healing and transformation.

Thank you for that incredible wisdom you shared and the insight it provided. It’s authentic, profound and powerful…and has left me, like others, in complete awe.

Comment from Claudia Joy
Time September 29, 2010 at 10:51 am

Wow. Holy wow. Thank you. Inadequate words, deep feeling of gratitude for your recognition of how healing can happen.

Comment from Kimberly Cain
Time October 2, 2010 at 8:46 pm

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! The Divine Masculine speaks Truth through you & moves powerfully because you have said “Yes” to its calling. Know that all of the affirmations you receive are a call to continue to share with us & to open further. People need to know that the work of the Divine Feminine is reaching her soul partner in True Love. You’ve given so much recognition to her here – She is dancing, singing, rejoicing, climaxing in ecstasy & resting in peace all over the world!

Comment from Teri Degler
Time October 4, 2010 at 9:22 am

Reading this and hearing how so many people have responded so passionately to it, heartens me in ways you can’t imagine! I’ve been writing books about the Divine Femine for twenty years — The Divine Feminine Fire: Creativity and Your Yearning to Express Your Self (Dreamriver Press) and The Fiery Muse: Creativity and the Spiritual Quest (Random House, Canada) and the response to your blog fills me with hope that this desperately needed message about embodying the divine feminine is finally getting out!!! Bless you and your work!!!

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Time October 15, 2010 at 5:00 pm


Comment from Doreen
Time October 21, 2010 at 10:26 am

the essence of Our truth has Opened the floodgate in my Heart
…that has released the centuries of tears I have stored there
that We may witness, “this time”…the reality of Love…unconditioned Love…
only Love Is Real

Great Full Heart In Us All

Comment from Raymond
Time October 23, 2010 at 12:44 pm

I resisted this at first, but now I am working with it as a tool for my own heart opening. Thank you for calling out to the gentle man that lives in me. I have not known him very well, but now I feel like getting closer to him. It is not a simple thing to know our tenderness when we have been trained in war.

Comment from Gina
Time October 27, 2010 at 8:20 pm

Your message is amazing.
Thank you.

Comment from Bright
Time October 30, 2010 at 9:35 pm

Thank you Jeff I accept your apology and the challenge to never give up. Hannahschild.

Comment from neni
Time November 3, 2010 at 11:39 am

the best thing i have read in a while

Comment from Fran
Time November 4, 2010 at 10:55 am

It is time to integrate the masculine and feminine. Your message is for both. Thanks.

Comment from Jocelyn Buchanan
Time November 4, 2010 at 2:24 pm

As always your words are comforting, reassuring and inspiring…I have never given up…and messages such as these are the reason for it…Continue shining EAGLE

Comment from venus rising
Time November 6, 2010 at 5:54 pm

Blessings and gratitude for these words which moved me greatly; as a mother of 3 sons, and a Goddess Loving woman, I feel you to be an inspiration to those men who wish to begin the journey to integration….it give us hope. Peace

Comment from Louise Brookes
Time November 12, 2010 at 10:54 pm

Such a healing read, thanks Jeff

Comment from Zayra Yves
Time November 16, 2010 at 4:19 am

It goes without saying that the apology is beautiful, soulful, painful and meaningful all at once. What I notice when I come back to read this again (and again) is this is an apology that could also be genderless and be powerful. Meaning, I wish we could all develop the heart and courage to apologize like this to each other. It is a great reminder to stand in humility and honor one another. Thank you Jeff for being a real inspiration to me lately. I genuinely appreciate it, as I see many others do, but it got me to come out of my shell, which I seldom do…

Comment from Karen Reid
Time November 19, 2010 at 11:45 pm

And the healing deepens. Thank You Jeff. Just beautiful. The future brightens for us all with such words.

Comment from WR
Time November 20, 2010 at 5:09 am

as a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and subsequent similar scenarios in relationships, i am humbled and grateful for your heartfelt, grippingly raw apology. your words and insight have moved me. i do hope, for all of human kind, that more of the warriors become awake and aware of the value in TRUE warrior-ship… the value in honoring the feminine… and not just the feminine within the female, but also of the feminine within the male… for this is the true warrior…aho.

Comment from Edna Santara Lid
Time November 20, 2010 at 12:25 pm

Dear Brave HeartH-LighT Soldier :)X(:
CarrY On….:)X(: NoW AnyThinG Is PossiblE…:)X(:
Of-LOVE I AM :)X(: ThanK YoU :)X(: BlessIngS…..

Comment from Andrea Hylen
Time December 2, 2010 at 2:04 pm

Thank you Jeff. Your words are felt deep within my heart. Your words healed layers of times I was not seen or pushed down or told I could not be or do something because I am woman. Your words opened my eyes to the pain of the masculine and a deeper understanding. I found this link now because this is the core part of me that is ready to be healed. Thanks for being here. This helps to heal and bring the balanced masculine and feminine within each of us into balance.

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Comment from Flo
Time December 6, 2010 at 6:04 pm

Jeff, This is beautiful writing. I have come to believe that these barriers between the genders will be healed one relationship at a time; one conversation at a time; with those that mean the most to us.

Many blessings.

Comment from Jenn
Time December 27, 2010 at 11:12 pm

It was good for me to read this right now.

Comment from Janet
Time January 15, 2011 at 10:55 pm

A true gift of spirit….Nothing to say that would be adequate…JUST THANK YOU..

Comment from kristian
Time January 17, 2011 at 5:04 am

wow. everything in my heart you have put into words, i feel i am very much in the same place right now. thanku so much for sharing with us.

Comment from Zeeva
Time February 1, 2011 at 3:41 pm

a beautiful powerful piece..gratitude Jeff ♥ I am not giving up…yet at this time in my life I choose to sing in the hearing of all those who need the inspiration yet to open my heart & life now to those who are ready to stand with you & me, hearts open and alight, embracing the sacred masculine and divine feminine living at the heart of us all ♥ Peace & LOVE Zeeva®

Comment from kylie
Time February 2, 2011 at 9:59 pm

Sooooo healing. Gratitude. Love <3

Comment from Elly
Time February 7, 2011 at 9:02 am

APOLOGIES to the DIVINE MALE (from a Woman in transition)

I apologize for my inability to see you. To truly see you, without allowing my conditioned mind to block the truth of what was and is right in front of me.

I apologize for all the assumptions, hounding, name calling and insults that have left you wondering what on earth you have done to deserve this.

I apologize for my arrogance in thinking I knew you better than you do and I am so sorry that I have not seen the struggle that you have been going through for so long.

I apologize that my so-called sisterhood has rendered you and your warrior tribe to eunuch status completely ignoring, misunderstanding and refusing to accept the wondrous gifts that you have.

I apologize that our emancipation went too far, that we tried to annihilate you rather than join with you.

I apologize for insulting your intelligence by treating you like a child instead of a man, for trying to manipulate you into doing what I wanted rather than joining with you and having fun along the way.

I apologize for the pedestal I put you on, expecting you to be a superhero when in fact you are a mortal just like me.

I apologize for trying to be superior, trying to do it all, to be both male and female which left you wondering where on earth you/men fit into my life as a Woman.

I apologize for anything I and my sisters may have done that has made you wonder about your role in our lives.

I apologize for not seeing your beauty in all its many facets.

I apologize for not recognizing your strength and how important the holding energy of the male is for a woman and how we cannot be without it.

I have been re-educating myself and I am still on a long pathway.

I have been out in Nature and been taught by the Sun and Moon. Without Grandfather Sun’s light, we would never see Grandmother Moon’s beauty. She would not been seen if it were not for Him.

I cannot be seen fully, truly as a Goddess without you, without your Light and warm Love.

I cannot be successful without your knowing, holding energy that allows me to blossom as a woman.

I cannot truly be a Goddess until I learn more about the God that you are.

Please don’t give up on us Women we are learning the new ways too.

I know in my heart that this is the Era of True Partnership. I offer you my hand in Love and ask for us to join our Light, talents and Love together so that we may be the Way Showers for all those who are now ready for the new ways, this new Era.

Love is the Key to all of our futures; let us place it in the lock that opens the door together.

©Elly Yule 2011 (

Comment from Connielicious
Time March 6, 2011 at 2:31 pm

I am overwhelmed to have found my likes. Thank you for your sharing and for finding a lost mortal as me! Blessed in love!

Comment from Sharon
Time March 10, 2011 at 2:28 pm

My bf wanted me to read a book on self-esteem. I think I’ll read yours instead. (Oh, he’s taking an anger management course – we’re trying!) Love your articles, site, etc.

Comment from David Crothers
Time March 21, 2011 at 5:00 pm

Thank you . your message is coming to me at aperfect time in my life.your open heart is truly helping mine.

Comment from Rick Busby
Time March 29, 2011 at 3:09 pm


Have now read both “apologies” and am inspired by the truth you revealed with your words. Not only will I take these to heart through deeper personal study and reflection of the divine ideas they represent, but I will immediately begin to do my best to implement their truths into my closest relationships. Thanks again for sharing your gifts and I will be looking forward to meeting you out in the fields at some point.


Comment from Dolby
Time March 29, 2011 at 4:35 pm

OM-filled with ahhhhhhhhh Thank you! Namaste

Comment from Rigel White
Time March 29, 2011 at 5:26 pm

Pfffht. No worries….. Lets just dance!

Comment from Hilda
Time March 30, 2011 at 12:28 am

Hi Jeff,
Your appologies are gracefully accepted from both sides. Thank you for this. It is not always easy to show your “true” self and acknowledge when you are wrong and at least to try to make amends, but one must also be willing to acknowledge when they are right… Peace, Love and Healing … <3 Hilda <3

Comment from Victoria
Time April 5, 2011 at 1:17 pm

This was so healing to read. Thank you for sharing your beautiful truth.

Comment from cvtutu
Time April 12, 2011 at 9:18 pm

beautiful in all ways and on all levels

Comment from Jim Uhlmann
Time April 17, 2011 at 6:10 pm

The simplest of all things, the organic and time tempered Sacred Masculine lies dormant below the surface here in America. Here, the sacred masculine remains a man-cub surrendered to the populist cry of a thousand women-cubs, having allowed himself to be tied and staked to the ground by ethereal threads of fear and shame by armies of post-feminist hope-lings with their little fists clenched. A lilliputian victory over the man-cub, himself yet fully formed in spirit, in understanding.

And now, four decades hence, generations anew, lost in the doing of all things, and our people suffer the lack of integrity and resolve as our leaders of families, churches, businesses and governments slink in behind the false mask of the new man, weak and unwilling to walk through the fires of tribulation, unwilling and untrained in the sacred obligation of discipline, self-sacrafice and selfless service, half-stepping to false pride and allowing others to tell us what to think, neutered of our right to serve the Sacred Masculine, to live and breathe our lives in honorable action, leading, protecting, serving all those around us.

Jim Uhlmann
Hale’iwa, Hawai’i
April 2011

Comment from Gary Rubie
Time April 21, 2011 at 8:44 pm

From another Warrior in Transition, thank you……HARDCORE…..

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Comment from Timothy Tang
Time July 31, 2011 at 4:28 am

It is about being receptive to passiveness, it has nothing to do with gender.

Comment from Timothy Tang
Time July 31, 2011 at 3:33 pm

You perceive the Divine Feminine to be related to physical female gender, which is wrong. You need to research the meaning, seriously.

Other spiritual people will tell you that the DF as well as Divine Masculine are not gender specific, and it is those superficial spiritual students that are female who would take advantage of this common misinterpretation and claim the DF to be related to their gender, because they are egotistic.

The Divine Feminine is not a superficial gender quality but is an innate spiritual/mental quality reflected in behavior.

A sexist is one who mistreats people based on their superficial appearance. But the one who mistreats the Divine Feminine quality is the one who perceives people’s behavior to reflect passiveness/gentleness, which is the Divine Feminine quality. Jesus is a good example for a person mistreated because he reflects the Divine Feminine.

Comment from jeff
Time July 31, 2011 at 10:31 pm

I don’t agree with everything you wrote Timothy, but I do agree that the apologies don’t have to be read/interpreted in a way that is gender specific. I often understand them as a communication between the sacred masculine and the divine feminine that exists within each of us, rather than as (only) a man to woman communication.

Comment from Victoria Thang
Time December 12, 2011 at 7:25 pm

I spent the better part of the weekend reading this and working with it to bring up all the memories of pain I had put away to deal with living. People kept asking me to read it, and I wasn’t ready when you wrote it. But I am ready now. Thank you for this brave act.

Comment from neal
Time February 28, 2012 at 12:40 pm

The WOMEN sure like this.
I never here about the Divine Masculine.
Does such a thing even exist.
Gloria S was approached and paid by the Dark Side to start feminism to cause hate and division.teinem

Comment from Natalie @ Enlightened Journey
Time July 7, 2012 at 12:07 pm

Thank you, this is so very healing to so many.
Much Love, beautiful Light and Peace.

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Comment from Lydia
Time March 24, 2013 at 1:21 pm

Weeping, weeping, weeping. Thank you for your beautiful honesty, and willingness to heal. Somehow, your words are helping me to heal as well. Blessings upon you…

Comment from Carolee Merrill
Time April 16, 2013 at 10:59 am

Dear Jeff,

Thank you so much for this… tears and deep gratitude are flowing from my heart as I feel the collective feminine being heard, felt and loved from the core of the conscious awareness and heart of the collective masculine. Thank you for being willing to awaken and to help love us all open to our real Self. ❤

Comment from Kamy
Time September 26, 2013 at 2:23 am

Hi there you.
I’m going to translate your message into french, just in case you would like to get it sometime. Just email me.
And thank you so much for sharing this with us. I really hope it will awaken the best in all of us.
Love from over here,

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Time October 12, 2013 at 1:02 am

This was a really fantastic read. I was enchanted, something rare for me , and I can’t wait to see what will come next.

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Comment from Anoka Shiva
Time December 9, 2013 at 8:30 am

B R I L L I A N T !!

Thank you on behalf of all the Sacred Masculine on its Way to Becoming and BE’ing here with You on Mother Earth

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Comment from Julia
Time March 15, 2014 at 12:50 am

Dear Jeff,

thanks. I especially love your honesty and vulnerability you share and the process of self-reflection you describe and that you don`t pretend to “know everything” already.
I am a healer from Germany and I have worked in rituals concerning these issues. It`s just so wonderful to know how many people are already on that path and to read all this comments and know it even more.
I use to listen to the spoken version as an evening meditation and heal a lot doing it. It usually still moves me deeply to crying when you start talking about your grandmother. What a blessed time that healing is possible in that way – I listen to your words, imaging the various men in my life who are not yet able to talk to me like that, understanding that you somehow represent them, that it is a collective process, that we are all connected. I understand more and more deeply my own parts, masculine and feminine and that this words are not separated from me. It`s like diving in the whole development of our common history and how things could turn out like it is now at the moment. And then, by understanding more and more, it starts to be the bridge you talk about and yes, more and more will follow.

The day will come.
We don`t know when but it will come and I long for it so much!

Giving back your blessings,


Comment from Erika
Time August 20, 2014 at 11:53 am

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the beauty I met in your statement. Namaste!

Comment from Jim Hauck
Time January 20, 2015 at 9:15 pm

Thank you Jeff for taking this warrior’s journey and creating the space to guide men to a new way of knowing!

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Comment from Lia Schofield
Time March 16, 2015 at 12:40 pm

You are a new beginning, and there are many like you who don’t yet have the words. We are ushering in an age that will allow us to survive and not create our own genocide. Thank you for being one of the leaders.
Norma Lia Schofield

Comment from Garrett Paknis
Time May 1, 2015 at 6:24 pm

Thank you, and I hope that with every breath since, you have continued to soften to what is clearly a very powerful heart. Beautiful.

Comment from Kirsty
Time May 22, 2015 at 9:09 am

The release of pain I felt upon hearing this felt like the pain of the Earth herself. Wailing, sobbing, immense gravity, constriction, tension and weight in my chest, solar plexus and stomach. It is so healing to hear this, more than any words could convey. Thank you from the Great Heart, Jeff. This is big.

Comment from DORIS EMMETT
Time April 11, 2016 at 5:30 pm

Read this and just felt a sincerity in your words…
A traveler you …on a path of discovery and sharing your knowledge with many. Thanks for that.


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